I became unsure

Lately, I feel more confuse than before about my feelings with my boyfriend.  I am not sure if I still love him that much, or simply just fall out of love.  I am trying to figure things out between the two of us, but the more I think, the more I feel that the love I have for him is slowly fading away.  Right now, I am not one hundred percent sure of what I feel.

On the first year of our relationship, he wanted me to love him the way he loves me.  And the thing is, I can’t simply do that, because I can’t simply force myself to love a guy that much during the first year of a relationship.  I mean, we were just starting and giving all that I could give is not a joke.  But few months before our 2nd anniversary, I started to feel the love he wants me to give him.  So, I did show him that I love him so much, and as we go on with our relationship, things have changed.  On the first year, our relationship was his priority.  But when he started to continue this some kind of path he have chosen, I started to feel that our relationship will experience a problem because of what he have chosen.  And it happened.  There were times that we were arguing about this path and our relationship.  He has more time with this path, and less time for our relationship.  We can’t have any other topic like before.  Every time we start a conversation, its always about his path, what he did with his group and this – and that!  He is always excited to share everything about his path.  I can’t feel anymore the love he used to show me.  Its like, from a girlfriend to a friend.  At first, I think I’m bored.  Yeah!  And from boredom, I’ve got confused.

All I want is a normal relationship.  Talking about a lot of things, making an effort to show one’s love and everything a normal relationship has.  One day, he asked me if there’s someone else that I am seeing.  I want to get mad, but I can’t.  That kind of question doesn’t even bother me anymore.  I am not dating anyone, I’m just not sure of what I feel for him anymore.  If our relationship is not in the list of his priority, then I don’t think this relationship will go far from what he have right now.

I did support him, but he forgot what he was like and changed.  I always explain what I feel, but he is just listening, he doesn’t understand me at all.  I am tired of explaining, I just want to be sure of what I feel.  Am I ready to let go of myself from this?  I wish I’ll have the answer soon.